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Formerly RealFaction. Composer of Pico's School OST, Castle Crashers Necromancer Theme, Fetal Fury OST, FNF Necromancer Mod OST. Voice Actor, Writer, Podcaster, Co-Founder of the Art-Inspired Music Contest and Pixel Day. Art: @ShadowCat5150

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Posted by ThatJohnnyGuy - January 10th, 2021

Hey guys....thank you for supporting me, my waking life has been really hard lately. I just want a stable life....im really lost. Sleep isn't stable, not enough money, l feel lost on my future. Im tired of doing so much alone for 8 years. It's hard not to give up sometimes when you struggle so much, and you're constantly stuck, feeling like a burnout.

I've been dealing with this for 8 years, im used to it, but it gets lonely, and tiresome, like everything i do to improve my life financially (and physically like sleep) isn't good enough. Working for $160 McDonald's paychecks, sleep issues, having to do 80% of things alone, and anything i dont i have to ask my parents for help still, like money.

Not to mention part of the sleep issues come from dealing with the neighbor's dog for the past couple of months or so, after leaving constant letters on their door to take better care of their dog to stop the barking in the morning since i need sleep for work and other things, and the association i've complained to many times won't do anything but tell them the same thing, cops won't do anything, animal control won't do anything, so I'm taking legal action. Time to find an attourney.

I'm NOT losing my job because of little sleep because of bad dog owners, and anxiety, stress, whatever the hell. It's really hard not to give up with a lot fighting me for years, I feel like I'm trapped in a cage, like a constant loop, I'm always stuck in. I feel stuck. I wish I made more money off my music and creative hard work, working from home, so I could sleep whenever i want, since a schedule is apparently hard for me...I don't know.

This post won't be around long, I have another one about Off the Wall's season finale coming out whenever the episode is finished being edited and I post it. It's a good thing I backlogged content because I'm exausted and have no energy to do much of anything right now. I'm really depressed, and it feels like life is going nowhere sometimes. Mostly because of the sleep issue, but financially in general. I hate life right now. That's all.

Sorry for the doom and gloom, I just feel exausted emotionally and physically dealing with all this, it's like everything constantly fights me. I'm sick of it. I want a better start in life. Most people are only seeing this in 2020/2021, I've dealt with it for years. It gets boring, tiresome, lonely, depressing. I wish I could make a living off making music. That's a pipe dream.


Comments (4)

Sometimes letting your thoughts out can lift off a lot of weight. I can not relate to your situation as I'm too young, so the best I can do is wish you good luck.

Sort of, sometimes. I just don't have the energy to scream or anything so I feel like at least this kinda helps, I really need to talk to one of my friends, need comfort right now. Idk. Thank you.

I really really hope things get better. You deserve better than what you're going through and feeling.


I suggest 2 things.

1. Make the best out of everything you can.
2. Shoot that annoying dog!

Shooting an animal isn't the answer. It deserves a better home they're giving it separation anxiety and who knows how it's being neglected.

Oh man, I feel you. Dogs that bark like that -- not socialized, afraid of everything, miserable without them at home. Poor thing

I feel much the same way with how my life's going. I'm in a lull where I'm waiting on medical treatment to basically be told "hey, they didn't fix your injury in time, so now you're probably disabled" and that's taking months. But at least I'm making good money and not having to pay a lot of bills, and the medical is free outside the uber I have to take to get to it. It's pretty crazy now that I think about it. I remember how things are going for you and a lot of times I feel like I have no right. I remember working at Popeyes. I got free food but the pay was pretty lousy and I worked harder than I do now teaching on the side and pulling security detail. It seems to get better, then worse, then better, you know? Didn't even go home this year for christmas, almost 4000 miles away from home.

Send me your album. The notification will remind me to buy it <3

Im sorry to hear that. Im taking legal actions against the owners, reporting abuse to animal control, using earplugs to sleep, and sleepytime tea. The album is https://cursedserver.bandcamp.com